That Damn Test

 75-200 questions....not that big of jump right? This is what stands between me and being a real nurse. Being on my own and being trusted to take care of patients. It's intimidating but I finally feel ready to take this test. I feel ready to be a nurse. I've learned so much over the past 2 years of nursing school and working on my Endocrine Unit. 

Not passing the past two times has taught me a lot. It's taught me humility. Most importantly, it's taught me that it's ok to fall as long as you are strong enough to get back up and try again. I've learned I have an army behind me. My husband - holy smokes that guy has my back. Parents and in laws that are so good at showing up no matter what. Siblings that care so much about me. My cohort from nursing school - most of them passed the first time but are still so nonjudgemental and so kind in letting me know that they believe in me. Then my new work family. The team of nurses and CNA's on T8 is seriously incredible. Every single person on T8 has told me they know I can do it and they have already seen that I'm a good nurse. All of those people put together is quit the army. I am so lucky. 

Most of my challenges in life have reminded me the importance of leaning on others. I'm not so good at that. I'm ready for the day when I don't have to keep learned that over and over again.  I take my test at 2:30 today. I've been fasting and praying for that passing result. I've worked hard. Now it's time to get this thing done. Passing the NCLEX is a big deal. It's a weight that I can't wait to get off of my shoulders. I've got so many people believing in me. Time to believe in myself.

The happy ending to this story is TODAY'S THE DAY I BECAME A REAL FULL BLOWN LICENSED NURSE! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!